Why You Do not Love Yourself More – And How To

decembrie 18, 2017 | Autor: | Posted in Fără categorie

Improving self-love and decreasing the desire for approval are part of my life every single day. I'm either helping other people through it, or I'm working on my own issues with it. Constantly.

We love ourselves just fine at first. Then something happens. I remember this vividly from my own childhood.

I've got an idea I just knew was utterly brilliant. I could not wait to see the look of amazement on adult faces when I told them. Except when I revealed it, it was immediately shot down. Really? I was wrong about that?

Or I'd say something I just knew would make my adults roll on the floor in laughter. They'd think, "Damn, that girl of ours is hilarious!" Except when I delivered my punch-line I was told to stop goofing off. They did not even crack a smile.

And of course we do not consider that maybe our adults are just grumpy or have no sense of humor or can not recognize our brilliance because of their own stuff. Kids always (always, always) assume they are the cause of everything.

It's the way our brains develop. At first the world revolves around us. We're the cause of everything. We do not even have the ability to make external attributions until later.

So if they did not like my idea it's because I'm not smart enough. If they did not laugh it's because I'm not funny. How could it be any other way?

And just like that, we do not love ourselves the same because beliefs are planed:
• I'm not as smart as I thought.
• I'm not as funny as I thought.
• I'm not quite good enough.
• It's in my best interest to find out what they want and that that. That's the only sure way to get the love and approval I need to survive.

After a while, we're really in a pickle: we've sent so much time trying to figure out what they're looking for and we're not sure what we want. We still want love and approval, we know that much. But when we're waiting for that approval from someone else, here's how it's going to turn out:

We continue the cycle of predicting what they want from us and delivering that.

Their approval is inconsistent. Because it's not about us, it's about them. Sometimes they'll feel like approving, sometimes they will not, no matter what we do.

We're left more disillusioned than ever. We thought we were doing everything right?!? Now we not only do not have the kind of approval we're craving, but we're not even being the real us. And the cycle continues.

There's really only one solution. Obviously.

You are the generator of the love you've been waiting for. Any other source of that love and approval might feel nice but it's not sustainable. It's not something you can rely on or control or even influence very much.

Clients tell me all the time that love and approval looks better-more valid, more deserved-when it comes from someone else.

(Setting aside how totally ironic and backwards that is for a moment) … the reason it feels that way is because you're still in that little kid mode of trusting others more than you trust yourself. And now you've trained yourself into that mode as an adult.

You've stopped trusting your own judgment and respecting yourself. But I have good news for you: beginning to trust and respect your own judgment again is easier than it sounds.

You just start. Start small, but start.

1. Say, "I love that about me" often. The more unsure you are, the more you should say it.

I get mad at my husband for something that was not his fault. Again. I apologize to him and silently say to myself, "I did it again and I apologized. I love that about me".

I'm wishing I was better than I am at something. I love that about me.

I got talked in the rain and show up for the meeting soaking wet. I love that about me.

2. Also, practice seeing yourself the way you see some living thing you totally adore. Babies and pets work well.

There's your dog, so excited to see you, so adorable and loving and cuddly. Transfer those feelings to yourself. Swooooosh … from over there on the dog to over here on you. You're excited, adorable, loving, cuddly. The way you feel about the dog … feel that way about yourself.

3. Begin listening to yourself, first. Do not look for advice so much. Do not ask other people what they think all the time. Do not even share what you're up to if you're doing so with an agenda for approval. Just do what feels right to you and let that be enough. It's your business, your life, not theirs.

4. Notice how little you judge others. Actually you envy them for stepping out of the mold and being themselves, do not you? Why would different rules apply when it comes to you?

5. And, remember how you were as a kid and that your ideas and jokes fell flat. You do not have to remember specific instances like I do, just know that unless you were raised by wolves, this happened to you, too. You had no choice then but to assume you were not good enough, but now you do have a choice. Your parents just were not in the mood for a joke, that's all. It does not mean what your 5 year old brain made it mean.

Practice and repeat. Often.

Sound too simple? Try it for a while first, please. "Too simplistic; that will never work for me" is a thought that is a cover-up for fear. I know change can feel scary. But you can handle a little fear-you've survived much worse.

Source by Amy L Johnson


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